Friday, February 10, 2012

Tough one...

 Its been a tough couple of days for me.  I turned to my old friend "Chips"...I even invited "Chocolate" for a spin on the dance floor of my debauchery.  However...Today I woke up in the same old bed, I put on the same old clothes, but I knew that I am not the same old me.  The chips and chocolate had my yesterday, but they do not own today.  I do.   I forfeited yesterday because I forgot that worry, anger, and frustration are just feelings.  They are not power.  Sometimes they feel very powerful, but only because I allow them to.  I will not regret yesterday because that would give me a sense of weakness, of failing.  I instead choose to acknowledge it as an opportunity to know myself more, to grow a little, and to develop new strategies.  Did eating change any of those issues that are bugging me?  Nope.  Would a spin on the bike have fixed them?  No, but that ride would have made me feel more in control instead of less so.  So, what do I know today?  That I'm in charge of what goes in and what I feel, how I react, how I behave.     I got the reigns...so where to?  Jenny

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